Open Gates
A bolstering gun of light
factors through a canyon of -
I don't know
- ignorance
- indifference
Distantly tracing a line
on a cold, hard wall
with a painted picture
of something warm - and beautiful
This etching
these..
pretend lines
somehow they bleed
somehow - they rape
the lies from the eye
But the iris
it strains
having forgotten color
like an open gate unrecognized
Holding freedom with its
camouflage background
of familiarity
The white wolf waits
quietly beyond the invisible walls
staring with its
ice blue eyes
Piercing through deceit
hoping
patiently
Words have no use here
and the moon isn't bright enough
to break the skin
and the gate will never swing open
without an eye to see it
Frequent poem writing and the occasional dip into life reflection and observation style rhetoric.
Saturday, May 5, 2012
Sunday, April 22, 2012
A poem.
Slumber that Bleeds like rain
flowing through veins
with pressure and pain
falling like rain
crashing on hot pavement
like gravel writhing
driving through unknown chasms
lies protect larger organs
from bursting, or imploding
walls that never die
souls that refuse to be free
the salt stains warming
flying into a long awaited slumber
resting in each moment
meditating upon what else to ponder
fleeing
flaking
run..
flowing through veins
with pressure and pain
falling like rain
crashing on hot pavement
like gravel writhing
driving through unknown chasms
lies protect larger organs
from bursting, or imploding
walls that never die
souls that refuse to be free
the salt stains warming
flying into a long awaited slumber
resting in each moment
meditating upon what else to ponder
fleeing
flaking
run..
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Peace has never been so good.
Restful Longing
The watery moon-lit
glaze flows below
my brain with such
strength - such certainty
As the midnight tree creatures
dance upon my ears
with music
as fruit might to a tongue
Save me - calm earth,
from the blustering boom
of tomorrow
Let me rest for now
hush these thoughts
as water vapor fills
my lungs with a cool
silence
beautiful breath..
This canyon of wounds
invites healing
this graceful plea of
filtered sorrow
It was never about the rain
- each droplet, so small
but the peaceful accumulation
flowing into the pond of
wisdom
The place where the dirt
proudly lies, settled
at the bottom - smiling upward
through the pure cleansing
waters of time and knowing
Each word - a droplet
each thought - a puddle
all joining together
in the resting place
where I long to be.
The watery moon-lit
glaze flows below
my brain with such
strength - such certainty
As the midnight tree creatures
dance upon my ears
with music
as fruit might to a tongue
Save me - calm earth,
from the blustering boom
of tomorrow
Let me rest for now
hush these thoughts
as water vapor fills
my lungs with a cool
silence
beautiful breath..
This canyon of wounds
invites healing
this graceful plea of
filtered sorrow
It was never about the rain
- each droplet, so small
but the peaceful accumulation
flowing into the pond of
wisdom
The place where the dirt
proudly lies, settled
at the bottom - smiling upward
through the pure cleansing
waters of time and knowing
Each word - a droplet
each thought - a puddle
all joining together
in the resting place
where I long to be.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Pursing in Surrender
Opening up
Like a pursed flower
rising
Reaching into this
surrendering
Each petal
bleeding
Ricocheting downward
condensing
Fleeing inside the pulse
breathing
Working through each elaborate chasm
beating
Opening toward perfect warmth
releasing
Bathing in shameless pools
dripping
Curling in fern-like delight
baring
Stretching for chapelled ceilings
absorbing
Blossoming every inch
wilting
Falling toward floor-lit caves
readying
Dancing in harmonic rhythm
slowing
Spreading throughout the end
resting
finding
progressing
Like a pursed flower
rising
Reaching into this
surrendering
Each petal
bleeding
Ricocheting downward
condensing
Fleeing inside the pulse
breathing
Working through each elaborate chasm
beating
Opening toward perfect warmth
releasing
Bathing in shameless pools
dripping
Curling in fern-like delight
baring
Stretching for chapelled ceilings
absorbing
Blossoming every inch
wilting
Falling toward floor-lit caves
readying
Dancing in harmonic rhythm
slowing
Spreading throughout the end
resting
finding
progressing
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
The "Age" of Reason
The Way the Soul Cries when the Clock starts
From a larger pulse
a whole that
r e t r acts
with every thought
and desire
etched into human form
breathing now
panting - eating
feeling - crying
laughing
processing
Life
Not just a piece anymore
or a glowing burst of
energy and infinity
Temporarily broken away
placed in material
experience
The earth weeps
with welcoming
flattery
A clock begins
tick ing
logic
Reason ?
Suddenly, this beautiful
infinite soul
feels the pressure
of being stamped
with age
separation
confusion
reaction ?
Dying to
connect
to a larger whole
the one from whence
it came
the wisdom
that had already consumed it
To hide the crows,
and the creases,
and the moles,
and the whites
and grays
or show them ?
Fighting, leaping,
begging
for the beginning
Running from the unforgiving
labeling
of the ticking
clock
Do not judge this
soul
by its
journey
l e n g t h . . .
For there have been
many
and there will be
infinitely more
Tear the skin away
break the eyes -
the hair
See the thing inside
the part that came
from the larger
p u l s e
the part
that has always been
the same origin
as yours
From a larger pulse
a whole that
r e t r acts
with every thought
and desire
etched into human form
breathing now
panting - eating
feeling - crying
laughing
processing
Life
Not just a piece anymore
or a glowing burst of
energy and infinity
Temporarily broken away
placed in material
experience
The earth weeps
with welcoming
flattery
A clock begins
tick ing
logic
Reason ?
Suddenly, this beautiful
infinite soul
feels the pressure
of being stamped
with age
separation
confusion
reaction ?
Dying to
connect
to a larger whole
the one from whence
it came
the wisdom
that had already consumed it
To hide the crows,
and the creases,
and the moles,
and the whites
and grays
or show them ?
Fighting, leaping,
begging
for the beginning
Running from the unforgiving
labeling
of the ticking
clock
Do not judge this
soul
by its
journey
l e n g t h . . .
For there have been
many
and there will be
infinitely more
Tear the skin away
break the eyes -
the hair
See the thing inside
the part that came
from the larger
p u l s e
the part
that has always been
the same origin
as yours
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
A poem about moments. The kind that knock you down, that weaken your pulse - just before it speeds up again.
Impact
Crackling fibers
dance
Upon the glowing
ember
light of this
electrifying
moment
Every particle
etched
together with
energy -
lightning
Something deeper,
warmer
than fire..
burns within
And the crashing
waves
are a mute comparison
wind
cannot blow, nearly
fierce
enough
Only light, reflection
refraction
Particles - finely tuned
flowing
Moving together, they
crumble
melting toward one another
giving
in to this elegant
yearning
this natural pull to -
connect
Much like the flow of
lava
the kind of burn that
heals
the kind of pull that
forgives
and the kind of welcome that
encapsulates
BANG
doesn't even scratch the
surface
of this. This is larger
Crackling fibers
dance
Upon the glowing
ember
light of this
electrifying
moment
Every particle
etched
together with
energy -
lightning
Something deeper,
warmer
than fire..
burns within
And the crashing
waves
are a mute comparison
wind
cannot blow, nearly
fierce
enough
Only light, reflection
refraction
Particles - finely tuned
flowing
Moving together, they
crumble
melting toward one another
giving
in to this elegant
yearning
this natural pull to -
connect
Much like the flow of
lava
the kind of burn that
heals
the kind of pull that
forgives
and the kind of welcome that
encapsulates
BANG
doesn't even scratch the
surface
of this. This is larger
Thursday, February 2, 2012
More poem-writing, as promised.
So, in lieu of the fact that lately, I've had more to "say" than to say poetically, I thought that perhaps a poem was due.
I did promise that when I started this, I would try to post some every now and then, and one for every 4 posts seems, at least, appropriate.
Hope you enjoy.
The Darkest of Delicate Beauties
As the moon fades,
glowing through the trees,
ever so dimly
its rays touch the skin
with unforgiving luminosity
The moon was always overlooked
always second to the sun
and its oranges, pinks and reds
But it is in the comparison
that the mind loses its focus
on the duality of the two beauties
Like comparing a hand to a foot
She rages - the moon,
with her blues, whites and purples
always delicate in her contact
Forgiving the sun's daily aggressive rays
with her cool, beautiful light
Dancing with the sun, she keeps in step
carefully maintaining this delicate
immortal balance
of prisms and light
color and white
Her dark beauty - glimmers
just as bright
There is no forceful break
in her rays
Moving the tides
she wails
submitting to her passions
But, jealousy - no
she has none
For what has she to envy?
None can tame her
cooling breezes
and meteor twilight
She is her own
Unpraised
and uncaged -- howling in ecstasy
I did promise that when I started this, I would try to post some every now and then, and one for every 4 posts seems, at least, appropriate.
Hope you enjoy.
The Darkest of Delicate Beauties
As the moon fades,
glowing through the trees,
ever so dimly
its rays touch the skin
with unforgiving luminosity
The moon was always overlooked
always second to the sun
and its oranges, pinks and reds
But it is in the comparison
that the mind loses its focus
on the duality of the two beauties
Like comparing a hand to a foot
She rages - the moon,
with her blues, whites and purples
always delicate in her contact
Forgiving the sun's daily aggressive rays
with her cool, beautiful light
Dancing with the sun, she keeps in step
carefully maintaining this delicate
immortal balance
of prisms and light
color and white
Her dark beauty - glimmers
just as bright
There is no forceful break
in her rays
Moving the tides
she wails
submitting to her passions
But, jealousy - no
she has none
For what has she to envy?
None can tame her
cooling breezes
and meteor twilight
She is her own
Unpraised
and uncaged -- howling in ecstasy
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Anyone done any Listening lately?
I am So brilliant. Aren't you?
Politics and politics, and religion and REFORM and politics, politics, politics, politics, and dammit if I didn't promise myself a long time ago that I would never venture into these topics, and I would always keep it philosophical and creative.
But how the hell can I avoid it without railing myself with a brick in order to keep my promise?
How!?
It's everywhere. It's engulfing - with its flames and its poisons and its know-hows and boohoos.
BLAH blah blah... that's all I hear anymore when those surrounding me talk about especially politics and religion.
So what's a girl to do?
Everyone is soo incredibly impressed with themselves for Everything that They know and are So entitled to their opinions. That you MUST listen to.
And copyrights. And independence.
And freedom-to-Do-or-Say-anything-I-want-no-matter-the-consequences.
And things. And T.V. shows.
And blah . - I heard it.
blah . . - Oh yea, where?
blah . . . - Y'know. From those people. At that source. With the stuff.
blah . . . . - Oh.. oh! Right! Of course I know. Yea, man.
double blah.
What happened to them? What happened to the men and women patiently and silently and humbly listening to others opinions BEFORE deciding that the one they were listening to was an opposing one? Where the hell did they go?
So irresponsible.
So inexcusably rude.
So arrogant.
Every last one of us.
Every time I go anywhere and any one of those subjects come up - I end up feeling as though I've been suddenly surrounded by a crowd of raving five-year-old know-it-alls Screaming at the top of their lungs,
I know the Best candy better than you!!
I tasted it first!
But I can buy it cheaper than you!
Mine tasted So much sweeter than yours!
And you know what?
I quickly turn into one of the babbling, blustering, boiling, raving, proud and loud.
Lunatics. We're all lunatics.
And we should be ashamed of ourselves.
The only exception I can even wrangle up is possibly my grandfather, or my father. Being men of few words, typically, they each only interrupt, interject, or speak strongly when they know, better than anyone, for absolute certain, not only that the party is interested, but also that they are more knowledgeable about the subject at hand.
and you know what else? When they are introduced to something new, from someone more knowledgeable than themselves. They listen!!!! Intently.
When did our poorly sourced citations, lazy grapevine gossip, book scanning and magazine reading become so deserving of our arrogance? Where do we got off?
Seriously?
When was the last time you spoke to someone about any of those things who patiently listened, and paid attention, before attempting to attack you with not a more confident, but a more knowledgeable rebuttal?
I'm having a hard time remembering myself..
We all desire, for the most part, the same simple things.
But everyone wants to sit around and fight, and nag, and fight - and point out to everyone, but themselves, how wrong they are.
Like babies begging for attention.
Do me a favor; next time you go to talk to someone about politics, or religion (or anything that tends to prompt your arrogant pride into full force) - show some self control.
Think before you speak. Listen before you think (I believe this is an important step we often leave out as well).
Analyze the jump before you leap -
or we're all just going to end up in the pit, dragging it all down with us.
I'll try to do the same.
Politics and politics, and religion and REFORM and politics, politics, politics, politics, and dammit if I didn't promise myself a long time ago that I would never venture into these topics, and I would always keep it philosophical and creative.
But how the hell can I avoid it without railing myself with a brick in order to keep my promise?
How!?
It's everywhere. It's engulfing - with its flames and its poisons and its know-hows and boohoos.
BLAH blah blah... that's all I hear anymore when those surrounding me talk about especially politics and religion.
So what's a girl to do?
Everyone is soo incredibly impressed with themselves for Everything that They know and are So entitled to their opinions. That you MUST listen to.
And copyrights. And independence.
And freedom-to-Do-or-Say-anything-I-want-no-matter-the-consequences.
And things. And T.V. shows.
And blah . - I heard it.
blah . . - Oh yea, where?
blah . . . - Y'know. From those people. At that source. With the stuff.
blah . . . . - Oh.. oh! Right! Of course I know. Yea, man.
double blah.
What happened to them? What happened to the men and women patiently and silently and humbly listening to others opinions BEFORE deciding that the one they were listening to was an opposing one? Where the hell did they go?
So irresponsible.
So inexcusably rude.
So arrogant.
Every last one of us.
Every time I go anywhere and any one of those subjects come up - I end up feeling as though I've been suddenly surrounded by a crowd of raving five-year-old know-it-alls Screaming at the top of their lungs,
I know the Best candy better than you!!
I tasted it first!
But I can buy it cheaper than you!
Mine tasted So much sweeter than yours!
And you know what?
I quickly turn into one of the babbling, blustering, boiling, raving, proud and loud.
Lunatics. We're all lunatics.
And we should be ashamed of ourselves.
The only exception I can even wrangle up is possibly my grandfather, or my father. Being men of few words, typically, they each only interrupt, interject, or speak strongly when they know, better than anyone, for absolute certain, not only that the party is interested, but also that they are more knowledgeable about the subject at hand.
and you know what else? When they are introduced to something new, from someone more knowledgeable than themselves. They listen!!!! Intently.
When did our poorly sourced citations, lazy grapevine gossip, book scanning and magazine reading become so deserving of our arrogance? Where do we got off?
Seriously?
When was the last time you spoke to someone about any of those things who patiently listened, and paid attention, before attempting to attack you with not a more confident, but a more knowledgeable rebuttal?
I'm having a hard time remembering myself..
We all desire, for the most part, the same simple things.
But everyone wants to sit around and fight, and nag, and fight - and point out to everyone, but themselves, how wrong they are.
Like babies begging for attention.
Do me a favor; next time you go to talk to someone about politics, or religion (or anything that tends to prompt your arrogant pride into full force) - show some self control.
Think before you speak. Listen before you think (I believe this is an important step we often leave out as well).
Analyze the jump before you leap -
or we're all just going to end up in the pit, dragging it all down with us.
I'll try to do the same.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Anecdotal Nonsense on Dating and the Dreaded Red Button...
Aaaaannnnnd.. she's still awake. Perplexed and unable to escape her thoughts.
Nothing new about that, eh?
On Dating
I was thinking..
Isn't it funny the things we say - the person we sometimes become when we're in the dating stage of life?
Silly, really.
Wouldn't it be so much easier to just take a deep breath and be ourselves?
So, why the hell don't we?
This game of anxiety and nervousness.. overanalyzing every little movement and word. Part of it is the romanticism of the thing itself, I suppose.
But, when, WHY did people ever become so scared? So fake...
I see it as an invisible box that we put ourselves into. When you're first meeting someone, your mind initially shifts to the "socially acceptable" box (which, let's face it - no one truly knows the answer to what this is - thus begins the circle of confusion.. winding us into an abyss of god knows what's next) feeling the ins and outs of what might make this person find you crazy or odd.
Anxiety is a funny thing.
But what really got me thinking, besides the obvious danger of the socially acceptable box thing (throw that one away - forever. Do it right now, I order you), is the red button.
The dreaded red button....
What's the red button, you say?
Remember when you were a kid and there was "that" thing - that One thing that was the equivalent to Not pushing the red button? The One thing you weren't supposed to do?
Do you remember the way you felt when they (in this case, probably your parents or older sibling) told you not to do it? Do you remember asking why? Do you remember how Badly you wanted to do it after they said Not to?
So, in this case, what's the red button?
The red button is accepting the box. It's not flushing it down the toilet and being yourself. It's doing the opposite.
O.k. So, now think. The last time you went out on a date, started a new job, or met some new people. What did you do?
I bet lots of you said to yourselves. "O.k., me. Just be yourself, and you'll be fine."
You just told yourself not to push the red button!!
And I'll bet you failed.
I bet you pushed it.
I bet you were as far from being yourself as is humanly possible.
Moral of the story?
Don't say it. Don't think about it. Don't even consider it.
As a matter of fact - do something else.
Take a bath. Meditate. Pray. Listen to your favorite cheesy band on the way. Do things that make the red button story seem like a silly little anecdote that you never intended to remember, or read again.
People are weird. I, myself, enjoy being one of the weirder ones. Go have fun doing the same.
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