It's time to start.

So, I've finally tired of saying I'm going to start a blog "sometime" and resolved to start it today. I'm honestly not sure what's been holding me back, but I'm pretty sure it doesn't matter once you've found yourself a jumping point. I guess this is it.

I've been bearing my fears and inner criticisms for far too long. It's time to bear them with a little strength and integrity. As much as we'd like it to sometimes, life doesn't sit around and wait for us to wake up, we just age, and then we have to reap the consequences of ill spent time with a proudly, or humbly, raised head. I haven't decided which one is mine yet, but I'm alright with that.

I'll probably be posting some poems every now and then, possibly some other interesting, or even uninteresting, things. Who knows? You'll just have to stick around long enough to find out.

I do, however, have a poem to share today. I have no description for it, except that it is an expression of a certain awakening process I've been cycling through for several years now. It's the beginning of something. A something which, at this particular point, has no face, and no name.

But I'm pretty sure it's beautiful. I hope you agree.


There It Is


I am the original wisdom
      you've been ignoring


I am the unconditional love
      you've been hating


I am the fear
      you've been running toward


I am the window pane
      you've been smashing


I am the pieces
      you've been ripping apart


I am the fire
      you've been suffocating


I am the soul
      you've been bleeding


I am the mother
      you've been infuriating


I am the house
      you've been wrecking


I am the music
      you've been muting


I am the mountain
      you've been tearing down


I'm the light
      you're trying to kill.

Over here.

It's o.k.

Shut your eyes.

Breathe.

It's safe here.